What is giving up according to you?
Is it the need to kill yourself because you failed your chemistry test the fifth time or is it locking yourself in the room for weeks or months only because he betrayed your trust? Or is it something else?
Do you stop loving yourself when you give up or when you feel the need to give up? Oh no, wait. Huh. You never even tried to love YOURSELF.
You wouldn’t have given up, if you cared about your life more than you cared about his love for you.
You see, I know what love is. But more than loving your boyfriend or girlfriend, I know what loving yourself is.
Are you thinking why I started talking about loving yourself all of a sudden? Lemme tell you.
Its because loving yourself doesn’t make you give up. It’s the only way to not go in ‘that’ direction.
You know that it’s the hundredth time your heart is trying to stop pumping blood to all the organs of your body. It’s trying to get rid of you and the pain you’ve been causing it over and over again. And it’s all because you didn’t love yourself.
You didn’t love your body.
Your own fucking self.
You think that you are wasted.
You think that your life is fucked up.
You think that no one will love you ever again.
You- YOU fucking gave up, gave up on your own self.
But think about this.
What if you loved your body? Your only heart? Your only, so called “fucked up mind”?
Its not his love that matters, my love.
It’s the love you get from your family, friends and the people who admire you but aren’t brave enough to tell it to you.
Because they’ve seen the cuts on your wrists. They’re afraid that if you do something that will hurt them or the vice versa, you wouldn’t only hurt yourself all over again but maybe you’ll ultimately give up on your life.
So do this tiny favour for me.
Do this favour for yourself and for your own body which is sustaining more pain that you alone are.
Please. PLEASE. For the sake of Lord Almighty, LOVE YOURSELF.
It’s not hard.
You will definitely need time.
Years, decades, centuries, whatever.
But, please. Try.
And I assure you, more than I have ever assured anything–Your body, most importantly, your heart which wants to let go of you, will accept this last chance you are asking for and it will love you back all together.
Love yourself first and the love you’ll want from anyone you love, be it him, will come to you.
Trust the time, trust your heart, trust yourself.
But, NEVER. NEVER GIVE UP.